Dear Dad,
I took a different way home than normal today and thought of you. I passed by the the little store where we bought boiled peanuts before sitting along Orange Avenue to watch Lexi in her parade. It was a little early in the morning to be eating boiled peanuts, but they were good. That and they reminded me of being a kid because I was following suite and doing what you were doing. I remember you being fond of boiled peanuts...stopping off alongside the road sometimes. Today was a rough day. It was a downward spiral of unfortunate events. Tomorrow will be better.
-Tiff
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Monday, May 18, 2009
Dear Dad,
I saw you yesterday. A grey-colored bird flying in the sky while I was driving. I knew instantly that it was you...and then I blinked and you were gone with no where to fly to or hide. I'm convinced that you read these. Every time I tell you that I didn't feel you were there, but knew you were, you stop by to say hi and make it very real...every time. I love you and miss you still.
-Tiff
I saw you yesterday. A grey-colored bird flying in the sky while I was driving. I knew instantly that it was you...and then I blinked and you were gone with no where to fly to or hide. I'm convinced that you read these. Every time I tell you that I didn't feel you were there, but knew you were, you stop by to say hi and make it very real...every time. I love you and miss you still.
-Tiff
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Dear Dad,
Went to Grandpa's funeral today and even went back to Granny Harp's house this evening to hang out. It was good to see everyone and reminded me of Christmas as a kid. I left my casing that I was given from Grandpa's gun salute, in the box that I made you. Seeing your grave today made me miss you more than normal. The sand is covered with lush grass. I got bit by ants in-between my toes. I know you were there today. Again, I can't pinpoint a moment that I just knew you were there...but I know you were, and I still missed you terribly.
-Tiff
Went to Grandpa's funeral today and even went back to Granny Harp's house this evening to hang out. It was good to see everyone and reminded me of Christmas as a kid. I left my casing that I was given from Grandpa's gun salute, in the box that I made you. Seeing your grave today made me miss you more than normal. The sand is covered with lush grass. I got bit by ants in-between my toes. I know you were there today. Again, I can't pinpoint a moment that I just knew you were there...but I know you were, and I still missed you terribly.
-Tiff
Friday, May 15, 2009
Dear Dad,
Went to the viewing for Grandpa this evening. Everyone said that Granny Harp had a better day today than she'd been having. I saw Julie and Steven and it was weird because of all the time that's passed since we've seen each other. I recognized Julie but I wouldn't have known who Steven was if I hadn't been introduced to him. Like you, Grandpa didn't look like himself. I didn't spend very much time near the casket. I hope the transition for Grandpa is going smoothly...I'm sure you did what you could to make it as easy as possible. It's got to be a humble experience to have your son welcome you to whatever it is after this life...usually it's a parent's job to making things easier. Though I'm sure things like that don't matter where you are. It's about so much more than I'll ever be able to understand here.
-Tiff
Went to the viewing for Grandpa this evening. Everyone said that Granny Harp had a better day today than she'd been having. I saw Julie and Steven and it was weird because of all the time that's passed since we've seen each other. I recognized Julie but I wouldn't have known who Steven was if I hadn't been introduced to him. Like you, Grandpa didn't look like himself. I didn't spend very much time near the casket. I hope the transition for Grandpa is going smoothly...I'm sure you did what you could to make it as easy as possible. It's got to be a humble experience to have your son welcome you to whatever it is after this life...usually it's a parent's job to making things easier. Though I'm sure things like that don't matter where you are. It's about so much more than I'll ever be able to understand here.
-Tiff
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Dear Dad,
It rained this afternoon. I was wearing my dangerous shoes and had to walk through the water-filled parking lot in my bare feet because I was afraid that I was going slip in my shoes. I had my camera with me, that I was trying to shield from the weather and didn't want to take the chance of falling with it. If I were to fall in those shoes on wood or tiled floors, I'm sure I'd break my teeth. I started a new project today. It was born while I was driving around today...no radio, my head was loud enough today. I hope I follow through with this one.
-Tiff
It rained this afternoon. I was wearing my dangerous shoes and had to walk through the water-filled parking lot in my bare feet because I was afraid that I was going slip in my shoes. I had my camera with me, that I was trying to shield from the weather and didn't want to take the chance of falling with it. If I were to fall in those shoes on wood or tiled floors, I'm sure I'd break my teeth. I started a new project today. It was born while I was driving around today...no radio, my head was loud enough today. I hope I follow through with this one.
-Tiff
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Dear Dad,
I thought I saw your handwriting on a piece of paper in mom's hospital room last weekend. I thought nothing of it at first but was drawn to it, not long after I had noticed it. I picked up the paper and held it for a few minutes while my mind made sense of it all and remembered that you weren't here. These things happen every once in a while. I hear what I think is you calling or saying something to me and it always takes me a minute to remember that it's not as it used to be. I'm not dismissing what I'm hearing...just remembering that it's different. Mom is doing better than she was a few days ago. Though she was in rough shape a couple days back. My absence in letters does not mean that I have been absent in thought. Things have just been so busy and I haven't found much time to write. Every piece of me is tired though I was reminded to be very thankful for what I have, while catching up on an episode of Inside the Actor's Studio. (I can't get enough of this television series.) Michael J. Fox was talking about his book 'Lucky Man' which is based on a bunch of people that are asked to throw their most horrible problem into a big circle with the hopes of trading theirs for something better. At the end of it all everyone ends up wanting to take back their own that they initially thew in. Just the thought of it makes me very thankful...for everything.
-Tiff
I thought I saw your handwriting on a piece of paper in mom's hospital room last weekend. I thought nothing of it at first but was drawn to it, not long after I had noticed it. I picked up the paper and held it for a few minutes while my mind made sense of it all and remembered that you weren't here. These things happen every once in a while. I hear what I think is you calling or saying something to me and it always takes me a minute to remember that it's not as it used to be. I'm not dismissing what I'm hearing...just remembering that it's different. Mom is doing better than she was a few days ago. Though she was in rough shape a couple days back. My absence in letters does not mean that I have been absent in thought. Things have just been so busy and I haven't found much time to write. Every piece of me is tired though I was reminded to be very thankful for what I have, while catching up on an episode of Inside the Actor's Studio. (I can't get enough of this television series.) Michael J. Fox was talking about his book 'Lucky Man' which is based on a bunch of people that are asked to throw their most horrible problem into a big circle with the hopes of trading theirs for something better. At the end of it all everyone ends up wanting to take back their own that they initially thew in. Just the thought of it makes me very thankful...for everything.
-Tiff
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