Dear Dad,
Mom had her knee surgery today. Everything went very well, though I know she's in a lot of pain right now. I felt bad leaving her tonight. And the bathroom renovations have begin again...hopefully we'll have the bathrooms fixed like you wanted them to be months ago. Bobby misses mom, he's been very sad and mopey since I've been home and now that it's late and everyone is settling down he's getting restless.
-Tiff
Monday, April 27, 2009
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Dear Dad,
I had the most amazing day today. Eric, Lola and I were headed to Mt. Dora to nose around and instead ended up at the Lake Eola Farmer's Market. The weather was lovely and we just did nothing but enjoy the day. Everything seemed so simple. It was the first time that I've really relaxed in a long time. I wished the day could have been longer.
-Tiff
I had the most amazing day today. Eric, Lola and I were headed to Mt. Dora to nose around and instead ended up at the Lake Eola Farmer's Market. The weather was lovely and we just did nothing but enjoy the day. Everything seemed so simple. It was the first time that I've really relaxed in a long time. I wished the day could have been longer.
-Tiff
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Dear Dad,
Dre told me today that he may be moving back home to New York and it makes me feel scared and a little sad. Sad for Lexi, because I just can't go right now, and honestly with you not here I don't know that there will ever be a day that I could go. This means she'll be destined to have two parents in two very far away places. Sad for Dre, because he's been here a lot longer that I may have been if I were wearing his shoes and for how lonely he must feel with his family being so far away. I'm scared for what the future holds and what it means for everybody. I remember when I thought that this was going happen a while ago and told you that I was probably going to go too, because I didn't want Lexi to have parents in two separate places. We were on that crazy casino boat that we went on for my birthday. You loaned me money for gambling and when Eric and I actually left the boat with more than we had, you wouldn't even take back what you originally gave me. Anyway...you told me that Lexi would be okay, even if I didn't go and I know she will be fine still if I don't go. Though it wasn't your words that made me stay, I'm so very glad that it worked out that way. I can't imagine not being here for everything that has happened over the last year. Things will just be different and I guess that's what scares me. What scares me a lot is that at times like this, I'm reminded of how I've made such a mess of things...and exactly how many people are affected by it.
-Tiff
Dre told me today that he may be moving back home to New York and it makes me feel scared and a little sad. Sad for Lexi, because I just can't go right now, and honestly with you not here I don't know that there will ever be a day that I could go. This means she'll be destined to have two parents in two very far away places. Sad for Dre, because he's been here a lot longer that I may have been if I were wearing his shoes and for how lonely he must feel with his family being so far away. I'm scared for what the future holds and what it means for everybody. I remember when I thought that this was going happen a while ago and told you that I was probably going to go too, because I didn't want Lexi to have parents in two separate places. We were on that crazy casino boat that we went on for my birthday. You loaned me money for gambling and when Eric and I actually left the boat with more than we had, you wouldn't even take back what you originally gave me. Anyway...you told me that Lexi would be okay, even if I didn't go and I know she will be fine still if I don't go. Though it wasn't your words that made me stay, I'm so very glad that it worked out that way. I can't imagine not being here for everything that has happened over the last year. Things will just be different and I guess that's what scares me. What scares me a lot is that at times like this, I'm reminded of how I've made such a mess of things...and exactly how many people are affected by it.
-Tiff
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Dear Dad,
Mom, Lexi, Eric and I went to Cedar Key for the weekend to spend some time with Eric's parents and for the Art Festival. I felt bad for Mom, because I knew the walking was not making her legs feel very good and opted out of walking around very much because of it. Made me sad though, because there was a lot that I wanted to see and take pictures of. I got a couple good ones that don't really say Cedar Key, but I like them nonetheless. Eric took us by the landing strip and I thought of you...there were a couple cessna planes parked. The whole town actually makes me think of you. It's filled with everything that I remember you loving when things were happy and I was little. The pace is much slower and simpler -how you always liked it and eating oysters and seafood always is a reminder of you. I think we spent most of our bonding time over seafood, specifically oysters that I only ever ate to be like you and my favorite...messy newspaper filled tables full of crab and those mallets that I liked. Because it's an old fishing village there are of course, so much outdoor fishing and boating things to do. There are few times that I've felt more special than on our fishing trip days. I'll carry those with me until the day I die.
I think I may have sparked a great new project while Eric and I snuck away to have a couple of beers and some oysters in town on Saturday night. Though I'm not going to talk about it yet, because I seem lately to get excited about projects I think up and talk to people about them, only to be disappointed when I have trouble executing them. Lexi learned some card tricks with Eric's Dad while we were out having oysters that she was excited to try out on Eric. He fell right into Lexi's plan and was very upset about not being able to figure out how it worked...pretty funny to watch. I hope Mom had a good time...I can never really tell with her. Though I now on Sunday she was ready to come home. It was a tough day getting home. We all were not harmonizing and the ride back was much longer than when we were going. I'm still getting used to living here with Mom and I know she's getting used to us.
-Tiff
Mom, Lexi, Eric and I went to Cedar Key for the weekend to spend some time with Eric's parents and for the Art Festival. I felt bad for Mom, because I knew the walking was not making her legs feel very good and opted out of walking around very much because of it. Made me sad though, because there was a lot that I wanted to see and take pictures of. I got a couple good ones that don't really say Cedar Key, but I like them nonetheless. Eric took us by the landing strip and I thought of you...there were a couple cessna planes parked. The whole town actually makes me think of you. It's filled with everything that I remember you loving when things were happy and I was little. The pace is much slower and simpler -how you always liked it and eating oysters and seafood always is a reminder of you. I think we spent most of our bonding time over seafood, specifically oysters that I only ever ate to be like you and my favorite...messy newspaper filled tables full of crab and those mallets that I liked. Because it's an old fishing village there are of course, so much outdoor fishing and boating things to do. There are few times that I've felt more special than on our fishing trip days. I'll carry those with me until the day I die.
I think I may have sparked a great new project while Eric and I snuck away to have a couple of beers and some oysters in town on Saturday night. Though I'm not going to talk about it yet, because I seem lately to get excited about projects I think up and talk to people about them, only to be disappointed when I have trouble executing them. Lexi learned some card tricks with Eric's Dad while we were out having oysters that she was excited to try out on Eric. He fell right into Lexi's plan and was very upset about not being able to figure out how it worked...pretty funny to watch. I hope Mom had a good time...I can never really tell with her. Though I now on Sunday she was ready to come home. It was a tough day getting home. We all were not harmonizing and the ride back was much longer than when we were going. I'm still getting used to living here with Mom and I know she's getting used to us.
-Tiff
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Dear Dad,
It was such a quiet weekend and it's ending horribly. I only left the house once this weekend...just laid around lots. Eric and I are now fighting, of course over something stupid. My feelings are hurt and he just wont let it go. I'll eventually get over it if we just don't keep discussing it every five minutes. My feelings are valid and I'm allowed to feel the way I do, as he is entitled to the same. Mom went to see Grandpa on Saturday. I feel bad that I didn't go. He's doing a little better though I'm not sure about Grandma. I'm actually looking forward to going to work tomorrow...things at home just aren't happy right now. I miss downtown and am worried about me and Eric.
-Tiff
It was such a quiet weekend and it's ending horribly. I only left the house once this weekend...just laid around lots. Eric and I are now fighting, of course over something stupid. My feelings are hurt and he just wont let it go. I'll eventually get over it if we just don't keep discussing it every five minutes. My feelings are valid and I'm allowed to feel the way I do, as he is entitled to the same. Mom went to see Grandpa on Saturday. I feel bad that I didn't go. He's doing a little better though I'm not sure about Grandma. I'm actually looking forward to going to work tomorrow...things at home just aren't happy right now. I miss downtown and am worried about me and Eric.
-Tiff
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