Dear Dad

Dear Dad,
It's been a long time...too long. Sorry for the absence...again. I feel as time speeds by so quickly. There doesn't seem to be enough time for most things. Last week was a rough week at work...I lost Linda. It was quiet but also loud with nervousness after I knew she was gone. A couple of the girls went to dinner with her and I wanted to go, but was working and wanted to give them their time. I could have not been working though. I could have left. I felt like I'd be an outsider and wanted to give Linda a true sounding board and I thought if I was there it might not have been as true..thinking back on it now I realize I should have gone. If I was an outsider it would have been worth it. It might have been a way for me to be there on a small scale, as she's been there for me when I needed it...and sprung my neediness on her when she was least expecting it. She'll be fine...I'll be fine. I guess I just know that it's probably not likely that in two years we'll still even know how to get in contact with each other; more because of me and my incapability to keep in contact with people that I don't see on a daily basis. (I know it's not fair that I force all my friends to put in so much extra effort into our relationships.) That makes me sad...though I hope I'm really wrong about this. Things are busy at work though and I keep telling myself that with the way of today, not enough time to fit in everything needed is better than seeking a string of tasks to fill the day. On top of it I'm pretty busy with photoshoot work, which is always a good thing. Though outside of work everything else seems to be falling apart...not really falling apart but all else seems neglected. Mom got a new car. James helped her pick something out and it's really nice. It's way more than I'm sure she was expecting. She's going to have to learn all of the new technology that's included with it in pieces. It's too much for her all at once! James and I talking to her about taking better care of herself. I'm really hoping she'll decide to have her knee replacement done before summer starts and that she's on the road to being healthier...before Baby Harp gets here.

-Tiff