Dear Dad

Dear Dad,
I didn't really feel like getting out of bed today. I actually went back to bed around lunch time for a little bit. I feel sad, but without a reason really. I just didn't want to go anywhere or do anything. I should have gotten lots done for work and my photoshoot next week. But I didn't. We finished painting the room for Lexi though. I think it looks really nice. It's a darker blue that what I was expecting. But I like it so much better; it's a very girly blue. Lexi seems to like it. I just finished the trim a couple of minutes ago after picking and picking at the intersection of the blue wall and white trim. I could spend months and still not have it perfect, but I finally threw in the towel and decided that it was pretty close to perfect...close enough. I'm worried about Christmas for Lexi and if I'm going to have enough gifts for her. You know I like to have an overflowing amount of gifts under the tree. And I'm worried about how it's going to be this year without you and if I'm going to be okay. I've been thinking about adding an ornament to your tree outside...maybe adding one every year. I don't know...I haven't decided yet. James wants us to spend Christmas Eve with Daniela's family. I know you and Mom haven't met her parents yet and I think he will be happy for Mom to meet her family. It makes me feel really fortunate that you met Eric's parents...even if you guys didn't talk that much or spend very much time together. It would feel empty introducing only one of you to the other part of my family that I'm looking forward to spending my life with.

-Tiff