Dear Dad

Dear Dad,
I was thinking about things while driving around purchasing items for my shoot this week and my heart just felt so heavy; I'm sure it would have lost a few tears if it could. I'm taking Mom to get a hair cut and maybe some coloring on Saturday. James and I thought she should get her hair done before the holidays and she's meeting Daniela's parents for the first time on Christmas Eve. I got really sad because you're not here and I feel like we're moving on so fast without you here. I want you to be here for all of this and am afraid that your feelings will be hurt in watching us. Okay, I'm not afraid that your feelings will be hurt, because I don't think you feel those sort of things where you are...but I guess my feelings are hurt. And then I get a little angry at myself for making it about me, when it really isn't about me at all. I don't want to move on yet...I'm not ready. I feel guilty for happy moments if they last too long. I know we were never the shiny happy family, but I miss you.

-Tiff